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Wasted

Today was a long day... Definitely was another tired day... Rained as usual, just like my mood... Stuck in traffic jam, just like my love life. It was just another daily routine for me.

Went back from training, another headache again, unbearable pain was what I felt... this time it left faster, how glad I am. I'm glad of lot of things that happened in my life... Good friends I had made, bright path of future I had created, supporting family I had, Most importantly, I had found the one in my life... Which a lot of people can't find in their whole life. I was glad... Glad is what I felt...

But today I was not happy, Disappointment is what I felt... Stupidity is who I am... It been a long time since I felt like this. Surprise is not what I need... It doesn't mean something good to me, too many unexpected surprised that occurred in my life. But I do need support... Lies is not what I want... Lies are not much different from surprise for me, too many lies i had listen all these years. But I do need honesty...

Support and Honesty, something simple but difficult to achieve... Words are easy to said, but it's different when do...

I don't need people to made my decision, took control of my life. i don't need people lied to me, just to made me feel happy... Is that the true happiness? Everything I 'm glad is faded today...

I'm tired... I'm confused... I pissed... I'm angry... No more strength within me to fight back anymore... I just wasted another day fighting with the one I love, what i think I know are hidden in the thick mist. I hated it...

Disappointed is what I felt... Stupidity is what I felt... One was my love one... One was my best friend... They get the worst out of me today.

That is a phrase that someone said to me long time ago, "Lying and hiding was human nature, honesty was just a fantasy." I don't believe it, but now I doubt about it. I think I can slowly adapted to that theory.