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Yesterday We Talked About Death

"My father passed away when I was t UK last few months ago..." He said it with emotion filled in his words.
"Before he gone, he begged for his family to be there with him, he wanted to see his own son face for last... But I was not there..." He was near tears. He continued.
"I... I was having fun with friends while he suffered the most. I was drank, spent money,clubbed with friends." This time, he shear his tears quietly.
"Now, it's too late... Everything was too late..." His eyes was full with tears.

I didn't say anything for few minutes, I knew the best way to comforted him was to let him expressed it out.
I looked him in the eyes and said softly.
"People come and gone. When they come we felt happy, and when they gone we felt sad. Sadness was part of the emotion we need to went through, and it's nothing wrong to felt sad. But when you felt it, learn how to detach it and feel other feeling too. Happiness, graceful, angry, regret... Not matter good or bad feeling, felt it... That's what make life complete, but learn to detach from bad feeling."
I recalled the memory depth down my mind, I used to felt the same when my grandfather passed away. Kinda funny to other people if I said I felt lucky, at list I still can spent the last moment with him. He was weak, he asked to go nearest to him ad grabbed my hand. "Pray, pray if you have problems. Pray to me..." Even for someone that near death, he still wished to protect his grandson. But I was still young, death was something so alien to me. And I am scared. I didn't even say a word at that moment.

"I hated him so much! I hated him for not taking care of us when we need a father the most!" He kept crying.
"But funny, now he's gone and I never get change to see him anymore." He stopped crying and trying to dry his tears.

I passed him the tissue. To make sure he get what I said, I repeat again.
"You made mistake, you father made mistake, I made mistake... We all does. We not perfect, we born with flaw, all of us does. But most importantly, we need to learn from our mistake, and we detach for that feeling."

"What's feeling?" He's shivering.
"Felt sorry for ourselves. We felt it, and detach from it, and try to feel other emotion too."
He nodded his head, and I continued.
"This is important, you felt sad now, and you felt sorry, it's fine. But have hope for tomorrow."
And he nodded his head again. He smiled.

"This is the lesson for all of us as well, learn from our mistakes. Learn to appreciate people that important to us while we still around... While they still around. Love them. I'm busy these days, but I still tried to called my family every week, so they felt relief that I still doing fine." I said.
He nodded again, he agreed.

"Can we meet again tomorrow? I mean if you were free." He laughed and continued.
"They all said these day you kept joined this and that, training...competition. Like you want to take down the world." He kept laughing.
"Yes, of course." I laughing as well.
"I have to go back, thought of having dinner together with my mother." He said it while staring at his watch.
"It's my time too, go for it!" I smiled.
"Hope to see you tomorrow, glad you are the one that I spoken to, desperately needed someone to talk to but I don't felt like talk to them..."
"Felt just like they talking for the sake of talking, comfort me just because they need to. But it's different when I talked to you."
"What's made you felt different?" I curious and asked.
"You talked for the sake of me... When you talked to the people, you talked for the sake of them and not yourself. Felt just like always." He smiled.

It was a sunny day... Just like another normal afternoon, felt different when I shared another value with the people around me. Life is short, we should share what we had learn with other people before our time run out. I was thought if everyone is understanding like him, would it be a better world? Our conversation ended and he left after we said goodbye to each other. Sometime, words brought us together and it tighten our relationship, no matter family, love or friends. I felt lucky our relationship still maintained the same like last time, some people just lose it when the time washed away everything.